| ohbladee..ohbladah..life goes on..yah..la da da da life goes on...LOL |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|05:08 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | some easy listening station. | ] |
so i sit here, almost happy for myself. i dont want to get ahead of myself before I know something is definate and for sure.
I have the strong possibility of changing jobs, from one where I love the people and atmosphere, the famous people introductions, good benefits, but not as financially substantial to one that is closer to where I live, I already have friends that work there, is more of a business atmosphere including my own desk and computer, with great benefits too, but pays much more. I have already made the decision to switch after much deliberation on my part. So basically, the hard part is over.
I have already had my resume viewed early thanks to a great friend of mine, and have successfully completed the first initial interview by phone. I am now awaiting the final interview, which will make or break the decision to hire me at this financially increasing position.
yet something still wanes on me.
i try to keep my eyes on my goal and remind myself of all the reasons why this is best for me.
-more money=more opportunity for savings, stock, and a more financial stable future that i SO want.
-the position is a job that I KNOW i can already handle with ease and am qualified for.
-its time to move onward and upward.
yet i have this nagging quality as i sit here in my current place of employment and look around, reminiscing and thinking about the people, and my history here.
i want to look at this place as a learning opportunity in which i was able to attain knowledge for future success, as well as some great friendships.
and i keep being told, by those who care, those who know me, those who have ESP, and mostly myself, that i need to stop thinking soley on others, what they want, what they feel and endure, and what i can do to help them. I NEED to think about me. Its about time. I cant seem to escape that factor about myself, and it makes me angry when i find myself doing it over and over.
i think i will feel better when i finally know the definate answer to my future with this new company. then i can focus on what is expected of me, by them and from myself in order to succeed and finally think of my needs and wants.
those who truly love, care about me, think of me, and want me to be happy--true friends and family, will be happy for me and want me to succeed with this change. I love those people. Everything does happen for a reason. this change is for the better. i want more for me. i want to do more. be more. have more. i want more to show for my life. i know this sounds like im putting alot of expectation into this job, but when i say all this, im not just talking about the new job. Its just the launching point for change in my life, thats all.
i'm happy with my life, but i want to be excited, free and happy.
I'm really tired of worrying all the time is what it mainly is.
we shall see how it goes :)
whew!..sometimes it just feels better to get it all out...LOL
group hug-big breath-....."kumbaya my lord...kumbaya..." oh boy. |
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| I can never resist... |
[Jul. 25th, 2005|10:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Booie's Mix | ] |
What is your favorite road sign?: the one in Creek and Pines that labels "Mariah Lane".
Are you feeling pain right now?: my back...we were at the gym for two hours straight yesterday...omg-it kinda hurts.
Do you own a picture phone?: no
What was your favorite song when you were little (i.e., under 10)? "You are my Sunshine".
What's your favorite board game?: wow..i dunno..Chutes and Ladders
What's your favorite card game?: Rummy
Atari 2600 or ColecoVision?: i dont know what these are.
What animal does your favorite cheese come from?: mainly a cow..but recently ive been loving feta cheese which comes from a goat.
What products do you use when you take a shower?: tres emme shampoo and conditioner, Dove exfoliating moisturizing soap
What are you looking forward to?: seeing EJ, getting fit, hopefully a new job with more money and all the things that will bring:) and always spending time with my girls.
What was one thing you wanted desperately as a child but your parents wouldn't give you?: well i got it actually...i always wanted a dog, and i had her for about 13 years.
At what age did you stop believing in Santa Claus?: oooh...early! ever since i was a child, i was always very logical and skeptical about things that dont make sense. i think i was 9, maybe earlier.
If you could have just one person from a celebrity entourage (nutritionist, personal trainer, makeup artist, etc), what one would you want?: personal trainer/makeup artist...hey they are two in one. they could be a gemini:)
What should you be doing right now instead of filling out this survey?: work
What magazines do you subscribe to or buy regularly?: Cosmo, Men's Health
E-mail or snail mail? each for different reasons.
If you had the choice, which would you rather explore: the far reaches of outer space or the deepest depths of the ocean?: the ocean, becuz im scared of heights..and space would be massive heights!
Do you find any cartoon characters attractive?: miss piggy..yeah thats the hottness right there.
King Kong or Godzilla?: king kong could eat godzilla.
Are you like your parents?: my mom and i have definate similarities. i dont know my dad.
Do you write your number seven with or without the line through the middle?: With-it looks classier.
What is/was your school mascot and colors?: Scottie dog and purple and gold
What do you put on your toast?: butter
How much do u remember the 90's?
[x] Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
[X] Fraggle Rock
[x] G.I. Joe
[x] Are You Afraid of the Dark?
[X] Secret World of Alex Mack
[ ] Bug Juice
[x] Beetlejuice
[X] nightmare before christmas
[X] Welcome Freshman
[ ] space cases
[X] round house
[x] The Muppet Show
[x] Muppet Babies
[x] Eureka's Castle
[X] Salute Your Shorts
[ ] legends of the hidden temple
[X] You Can't Do That On Television
[] G.U.T.S. DO U HAVE GUTS?
[x] What Would You Do?
[x] Double Dare
[x] Rocko's Modern Life
[x] All That
[x] Ren and Stimpy
[x] Clarissa Explains It All
[ ] The Torklesons
[X] The Adventures of Pete and Pete
[ ] Stick Stickley Write to me, Stick Stickley, PO Box 963, NYC, NY State, 10108
[x] Goodburger
[x] Angry Beavers
[x] Hey Arnold!
[x] AHH! Real Monsters
[x] Tiny Toons
[X] Animaniacs
[x] Pinky and the Brain
[ ] Freakazoid
[ ] Earthworm Jim
[x] the babysitter's club
[ ] Underdog
[x] Kablam!
[ ] Gullah Gullah Island
[ ] Richard Scarry
[X] Dumbo's Circus
[ ] Ocean Girl
[x] Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
[ ] Snick Snacks
[x] Dunkaroos
[x] SNICK- Saturday Night Nick
[ ] Koala Yummies
[X] Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?
[X] Nickelodeon Magazine
[X] Ernest Movies
[X] Radio Flyer
[ ] Disney Watchers
[x] Adventures in Wonderland
[x] Homeward Bound
[x] The Adventures of Yellow Dog
[X] Milo and Otis
[X] Neverending Story
[X] Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
[x] The Lion King
[X] Labyrinth
[x] 101 Dalmations
[ ] the secret garden
[ ] Pete's Dragon
[x] Hocus Pocus
[ ] Secret of Roan Inish
[x] Land Before Time
[x] Dinosaurs
[X] Fern Gully
[ ] Secret of NIMH
[x] Gummi Bears
[x] Care Bears
[x] my little pony
[X] Black Beauty
[x] Rainbow Brite
[ ] Lady Lovely Locks
[x] Candyland
[x] Sorry!
[x] Trouble
[ ] Don't Wake Daddy
[x] Mousetrap
[x] Jenga
[x] Don't Break the Ice
[x] Hungry Hungry Hippos
[x] Pretty Pretty Princess
[x] Tinker Toys
[ ] Cooties
[ ] The castles that made tea sets
[x] Polly Pocket
[ ] Mighty Max
[ ] Hypercolor T-Shirts
[x] Lite Brite
[ ] Sky Dancers
[x] Scrunchies
[x] side ponytails
[ ] Stirrup Pants
[x] Jellies
[X] Saddle Shoes
[x] Barbies
[x] Beanie Babies
[x] Tamagotchies
[x] Yo-Yos
[ ] Duncans
[X] Choose Your Own Adventure
[x] Pogs
[x] Goosebumps
[ ] Magic Attic Club
[ ] American Girl
[ ] Island of the Blue Dolphins
[X] Saved By The Bell
[x] Full House
[x] Step By Step
[x] TGIF on ABC
[x] Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
[x] Boy Meets World
[x] Clueless
[x] Simpsons
[x] Flipper
[x] Growing Pains
[x] Family Ties
[x] Titanic
[ ] Felix The Cat: The Movie
[x] Jonathan Taylor Thomas
[x] Home Improvement
[x] Tom and Huck
[ ] My Brother and Me
[x] Keenan and Kel
[x] Hanson
[x] Inspector Gadget
[x] Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
[x] Power Rangers
[x] Hot Wheels
[x] Creepy Crawlers
[x] Easy Bake Oven
[x] cha cha chia Flower Making Kits/Chia pets
[x] Wild and Crazy Kids
[x] Playdough McDonald's Sets
[x] Animorphs
[ ] Rainbow Fish
[X] If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
[ ] Bailey School Kids
[x] Wayside School
[ ] Cam Jansen
[X] Ramona Quimby
[ ] Amber Brown
[X] Allegra's Window
[ ] 3-2-1 Contact
[x] baby ginger sporty scary and posh
[X] The brave little toaster
[ ] Bananas In Pajamas
[X] One Saturday Morning on ABC
[x] Transformers
[ ] Transformers Beast Wars
[x] Waynes World
[x] The dancing baby
[x] Nancy Drew novels
[x] catdog
[ ] shamomo the cat
[x] captain planet
[ ] FACE
[x] Doug
[ ] The Biker Mice From Mars
[x] Furbies
[x] Giga Pets
[ ] Sam and Max
[X] Bobby's World
[x] Life With Louie |
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| Something I've been working on... |
[Jul. 17th, 2005|02:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 90's station on the tv | ] |
I feel your love
and I feel fire
thats just enough
to keep me goin
for a while
hold me near
in your arms forever
knowing that we will
always be together
*With every thought of
what you do
I'm having dreams of you
youre in my heart
and I just pray
you'll be in my arms again
someday
young loves were
never meant to be
thats what people try
to say about you and me
but i know
that our love is strong
and that is how we go on
*chorus
growing closer
yet so far apart
and everyday without you
is breaking my heart
love just can't help itself
cuz our love was meant
for no one else
*chorus(2wice)
youll be in my arms
again someday
i'll be in your arms
again
someday |
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| A poem for a good friend... |
[Jul. 13th, 2005|06:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tick tock clock | ] |
I'm not sure if some of you know or not, but on June 18th we had to put my dog of 13 years down because she had cancer. My mom wrote a poem about her, dedicated to her, that was read to her before she went under. I recently found it, and wanted to post it up:)
Thank you Poppy for your love
you have loved us for 13 years
we met you when you were the size of your head
you taught us to say what we mean and mean what we say
you taught us co-operation, and unity
you are every bit "doggie-peoples"
you taught us patience
you taught us that firmness and kindness are far better than anger
you have made us laugh
you have made us cry
you have been there for each of us to listen to our pain and troubles and kiss away our tears with your licky tongue
lively lady with bounce in your walk, white flag tail that you could never catch waving high
a brave fierce protector of all you loved
the fun police patroling for all whom cross the line
particularly the cats
so intelligent, so eager to learn and to please
its time now to tuck in for good, girl
you are a good girl and we love you very much Poppy
sweet dreams and give Christina a licky kiss from us
who could have known how much love we would share
we love you
we really love you.
wow...can my entries lately be any more depressing?..geesh...yeah, i need to post some more happy uplifting entries soon...shoot..LOL see you around...~D |
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| Hmmm...everywhere you go... |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|04:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tappity-tap-tap | ] |
Why is it that when you are a little child, in your toddler years, does everyone make it so important that you learn how to speak, and speak correctly?
They are so happy when you can say their names, and recognize objects by name, put sentences together, and finally carry on conversations.
Then after those glorious moments in time...
for the rest of your life, after learning such a once-important necessity, you are forever told to be quiet...
libraries, school, work, at home, in hospitals, movies, etc...
sometimes things just don't make any sense to me...LOL
on a brighter note-EJ made my day again...he keeps doing that!:) i enjoy it. |
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| Change is good...:) |
[Jul. 2nd, 2005|06:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *singin to me, again..* | ] |
Sometimes life can be a bumpy ride
Sometimes it feels like
youre drivin with covered eyes
And you listen to your friend who's in the car by your side
They say they've got your map, what if your friends are
tellin lies
So listen to you heart cause you cant see no road signs
You dont know where to stop or where to turn
Everyone goes through it I'm in the middle of mine
And I try to remember its the only way to learn
Hold on [youve gotta hold on]
Hold on [youve gotta hold on]
You gotta stay real true to yourself in the game of
becomin a adult where the rules never stay the same
Remember who you are, who made you and who's keepin you here
Who's makin you not duck from problems in fear?
People in your way
dogs and bitches
Whos lickin your ass?
liars and snitches
Even though its a bumpy ride
Keep your head above the water line
Keep focused and you'll make it through
Keep on rollin is what youve got to do
Even though its a bumpy ride
dont you slip and dont you slide
Love will be there in the end
when you come around that bend
Youve gotta keep your flow smooth, never hesitate
Never stop believin, always keepin the faith
But always be critical never naive
Cause if you can be that there's so much more you can acheive
Maybe then when youre grown up satisfied and strong
Maybe then you will be happy, happy that you held on |
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| I HAVE A DATE TONIGHT! |
[May. 17th, 2005|12:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  excited | ] |
i just bought the second season of golden girls on DVD!!!
oh, can we guess what Daved will be doing this evening?
i was looking over the show titles, and i KNOW there are some episodes that i have never seen before, thanks to the repitition of re-runs..:)
its a merry time for me...merry time indeed:)...LOL
oh whoa and sadness to me...that i should have to what thilst many hour and endure such tribulations as the hands of time before thy can wrap thyself in the embraces of rapture, as such thanks for being a friend...
what?? shoot, i cant wait until i get outta work!
soooo strange how 4 old ladies can get me so excited..*ponders* eew...where are your minds?
YAY! |
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| Lil Update:) |
[May. 16th, 2005|06:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
So I had my interview with Bob Warlock today at noon for the Coordinator of Volunteer Services Position. It was at noon.
Can I just say how hot I looked today? And you know that when you look hot, you feel good. So I was on the ball.
I went in and was my natural self. It went better than I had thought. I just felt the entire time like no matter what their questions were, I had the exact right answers, determined by their responses and facial expressions.
I was told that I was second in consideration for the position, so there was a strong chance that I would get the job. Hmmm...second out of about 150 applicants...yeah, thanks:)
It is definately a pay increase, and diva knows that a salary position is very yummy. the job requires more than i expected, but from what i was told, i will very much enjoy it. it was like me and this position are meant to be...LOL
I looked good, felt good, did well and had my whole day made after my interview. everyone is really supportive, and i really want it.
we will see what happens.
yes, i did wear my kenneth cole pants...i wonder if that had anything to do with it...*wink* |
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| I couldn't sleep...so now I'm awake...that makes sense..LOL |
[May. 14th, 2005|03:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
I have an interview on Monday with the Director of Operations at noon for the Coordinator of Volunteer Services position. YAY! I made it to interviews...
I have just bought my very first virgin piece of...dum..dum..dum..Kenneth Cole Clothing!! I know, I know I almost fell over when it happened. They are so beautiful, and so comfy, yet simple. They are jet black dress pants with a cross-over button and lined cotton pockets. Eh..they're ok...LOLOL:)
I have so many things bothering me at once that I can't sort them out, much less talk about them yet. I feel like I am in a holding pattern...which sucks.
I need to get more sleep.
I want to go shopping for furniture.
Sometimes I miss you like crazy.
Chicken would be soooo good right about now.
Golden Girls season 2 goes on sale in 3 days.
I will have 4 days off for my birthday, if I go to work everyday until then. I will be in this state.
I think I have Nicole's cold...or allergies.
Booie steals my stuff and hides it...damn little bugger:) |
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| I cried, I laughed, I thought A LOT, I'm in love..:) Who would have thought? |
[May. 5th, 2005|12:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sweet melodies of the soundtrack in my mind | ] |
"WICKED" IS HANDS DOWN THE BEST MUSICAL EVER!!!
I LOVE IT WITH A PASSION...I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT.
(so many themes, and thoughts whirling around in my mind...ponderances, emotions, conclusions, questions..elation, then kindred feeling..visions, then smiling with tears-I adore it.)
THANK YOU:)
...Glinda is my Favorite...
("pssst..JG's fave new mariah song is "We Belong Together..pass it on.")
(There are very dangerous, attacking chairs in NYC now..please be careful. We had to witness a rumble today between a park fairy and one of these elusive creatures) |
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[Apr. 25th, 2005|01:02 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
1. I feel that my father--is a complete stranger to me, and I am actually completely fine with that.
2. When odds are against me--sometimes I feel really alone.
3. I always wanted to feel--famous.
4. If I were in charge--no one would be drinkin "Hateorade" on a daily basis.
5. To me, the future looks--better than the past.
6. The people around me--are the chosen.
7. I am afraid of--dying, heights, and snakes give me the wiggins.
8. I feel that a real friend--lets you be yourself and knows the real you, but loves you anyway, always.
9. When I was a child--I looked like I belonged on a box for "Little Debbie Cakes".
10. My idea of a perfect person is--a robot. people arent perfect. i prefer that.
11. When I see a man and a woman together--i smile on the outside. when i see a man and a man together, or a woman and woman together, i smile on the inside.
12. Compared with most families--we should have our own show.
13. I believe I have the ability to--get a general notion of what someone is like after only knowing them for a few minutes.
14. I look forward to--meeting mariah.
15. People don’t know--for no apparent reason, i get really sad sometimes. and then just like that-poof! happy again.
16. My feelings about married life are--when it eventually happens to me, its for keeps. when i get married, i never want to get divorced. so i have to be completely, whole-heartedly sure about it. i only want to do it once with my true love.
17. My family treats me--sometimes like i dont fit. other times, like they dont know where they would be if i wasnt here.
18. I don’t like people who are--ignorant and hateful.
19. My mother and I--have taught eachother alot.
20. My greatest mistake was--trying to think i had control over everything in my life.
21. I wish my spouse would--never lie to me, always trust me, and be an all-around good person...plus make me laugh all the time, and likewise ofcourse.
22. My greatest weakness is--if music is playing, i cant help but dance.
23. My secret ambition in life is--to live forever.
24. I wish I could--be mariah's best friend.
25. The people I like best are--the ones with condos in my heart-my girls.
26. If I were young again--i would have given my little brother a break. i was always looking after him, and keeping him in line.
27. I believe most men--"have a penis, and girls have a vagina."
28. Most families I know--are the ones you create.
29. I like working with people who--know that their job isnt the MOST important thing in the world, and can lighten up every now and then.
30. I think most parents--hope they did a good job with their kids, and will always wonder about that.
31. My children will be--LOVED, and well-educated with as much as I can possibly teach them-scholastically, and life lessons.
32. What I want most out of life is--to have me and everyone i know to be happy and healthy.
33. My fears--dont rule me.
34. When I’m not around, my friends--know i am with them, always...shoot even in the bathroom--"did you wash your hands?!?..replacing the toilet paper roll is a very good thing."..LOLOL
35. My most vivid childhood memory is--the uncountable times I sang and danced in my living room, on the coffee table and couch, with that little blue hairbrush-hey, everyone needs a microphone! :)
36. God is--"everywhere." "nosy little bastard, isnt he?"--Heartbreakers, 2001. |
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| They don't call me "Diva" for nothing...LOL |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|02:50 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | top of my lungs..LOL | ] |
| [ | music |
| | in the car | ] |
You've got a problem with the way that I am
They say I'm trouble, but I don't give a damn
Cuz when I'm bad, I know I'm better
I just wanna get loose
and kick it up for you |
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| Passed on through the journals of time....:) |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|07:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sweet sweet melodies of the dryer | ] |
We all have things about our friends that make us jealous, not in a bad way but in a "gee i wish i had that person's hair, eyes, money, relationship, inner beauty, etc." Tell me what about me makes you jealous, then post this in your LJ and see what makes me jealous of you! |
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| Something good |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|03:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cool | ] |
| [ | music |
| | me singing-what else is new? | ] |
My mom had this ingenius idea of immortalizing my sister through the use of something many of us love-the internet. she made a webpage all about her, and I think it's turning out pretty well.
Check it out if you'd like to take a peek.
http://cmls.memory-of.com/about.aspx
She keeps updating it and changing things, so it will be different each time you look at it, with new photos, and such.
anywho, have a great day. I love you guys.
You are always there for me more than you know-those of you who know who you are, know what i mean...*wink and a big hug* |
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| Thank you for being a friend... |
[Apr. 8th, 2005|07:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | loved | ] |
I would like to thank everyone who was there for me when I needed them. I really appreciate your phonecalls, emails, letters, cards and smiles. It's so great to know that I have people out there who love me, and are there in times that maybe aren't so great.
We are all doing pretty ok. My mother, I think has taken the biggest blow from this. But she's pulling through and is strong. She always has been. Shoot, thats why I am...:)
But I wanted you all to know that I did get them, and I really love them, and you. Thank you again.
For a while, I didn't think that it was ok for me to smile, or enjoy myself with whatever I was doing. I felt it wasn't right. Like I shouldn't be happy that the sun is shining, mariah is singing, I get to sleep in or have a day off, laugh with my girls, or even go dancing because from now on, she will never be able to. For a while, that crushed me, but then I realized I can't be sad because I'm living my life. I can be sad because she is no longer, and always have a place in my heart for that, and her. But I know that she would hate it if everyone was sad for her. She and I always had this rule, that if you cry, you cry for 10 mins and thats it...LOL
I broke that rule for a few days.
But all is good now, as best as it can be. I will always think of her, and always love her, even though for the past few years, we didn't really connect too well. Maybe we can connect more now.
So, if you see me, please don't be worried about me, or be weird in any way. I'm good. Diva heals. And when I laugh, its ok. I'm not hiding anything or faking anything. I truly will be laughing because I'm happy at that time.
Things happen. They do. Sometimes they are good. Sometimes they are bad, but they happen. Thats life. Everything happens for some reason or another. So instead of missing, and crying for what is over, I'm gonna smile because it happened. She happened. I love that.
So, thank you always. I love you guys. |
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| I don't know what to do. |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|11:22 pm] |
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This morning at 10:30 am, my older sister, Christina was killed in a car accident, after running a stop sign. She died instantly. She would have been 24 this year. |
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| Whoa, we're neighbors!! |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|12:24 am] |
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You're Nevada!
People are constantly mispronouncing your name, and this has provided you
with a lot of frustration over the years. You prefer silver to gold, sagebrush to trees,
and cards to sporting events. There is almost nothing you aren't willing to lay down a
wager on, and others seek you out for advice on their own wagers. You don't take marriage
terribly seriously, though you are one of its biggest proponents. Far too often these
days, others are mistaking you for an industrial-strength garbage bag.
Take the State Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
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| HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|11:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | a myriad of mariah lyrics flowing through me.. | ] |
NOT ONLY IS IT EASTER, BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY ITS MARIAH'S BIRTHDAY!!!
BABYGIRL WAS BORN ON THIS DAY NOT TOO LONG AGO, TO GRACE US WITH HER BEAUTY, CHARM, WIT, HUMOR, AND INCOMPARABLE TALENT.
AS IF IT WAS A GIFT FROM MARIAH TO ME, AFTER CELEBRATING HER BIRTHDAY AS I ALWAYS DO, ON MY WAY HOME FROM THE STORE, SUDDENLY HER LATEST SLOW SINGLE MIRACULOUSLY COMES ON THE RADIO, AS I AM ABOUT TO EXIT MY VEHICLE. IT WAS LIKE A COSMIC PERSONAL CONNECTION BETWEEN ME AND MY GIRL. BY THE WAY, IT ROCKS, AND I RECOMMEND YOU LISTENING TO IT. DIVA GETS BETTER AS EACH GLORIOUS BIRTHDAY PASSES.
I LOVE HER, AND I LOVE YOU, AND I LOVE YOU FOR LOVING HER, AND I LOVE HER FOR LOVING YOU, WHILE I LOVE YOU FOR LOVING ME AS I LOVE HER.
PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD, WATCH A MOVIE, VIDEO, LISTEN OR SING TO A SONG, OR EVEN JUST THINK OF HER FOR A MOMENT ON THIS BRIGHT SUNNY DAY...DO YOUR PART, YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO. YOU LOVE HER, BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME, AND I LOVE HER.
HAVE A GREAT DAY. I KNOW I DID, AND SHE DID TOO!:)
SHOOT... |
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| It's no longer a journal, it's apparently a personality midterm. |
[Mar. 2nd, 2005|11:29 pm] |
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1.PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT AND WHEN?
I have a scar below my tummy button. its there because once upon a time, i had a steel bar installed into my lower abdomen with two little balls capping each end that stuck out of my skin. it was for ornamentation to go along with my button piercing. well the bar started to try and make its way through my skin(ick) and had even made alittle hole where you could see the bar through the skin. needless to say, that puppy is outta there. i keep the bar in a box now to remind me never to make the stupid decision of thinking that steel should dwell beneath my skin layers.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
a large mirror..surprise, surprise. no no..i just havent unpacked anything from when i moved back in with my mom, because i knew it was temporary.
3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT?
neither..i think its boring. isnt golden girls on? come on its on like all day...LOL
4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT?
i like playing some sports at different times. but im not really the best at them. i guess it was that whole no male role model, and lack of interest in them thats handicapped me. dancing, singing, sleeping, writing, talking, laughing, arguing, hugging, these should be sports..i kick ass at 'em.
5. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE?
i could feel myself being frantically chased in the dark, outside in the woods by someone, until i fall off a cliff at the edge of the woods, into a lake or ocean. i manage to get myself onto shore only to meet my chaser, waiting for me. i cant see their face or anything because of the water in my eyes and the dark, but i can definately feel them stabbing me and punching me over and over again. i then felt myself die, slowly, until i wake up. it was one of those dreams that are so real, you actually make noise, and cry out in your sleep. i could smell the pine trees of the woods, taste the salt and feel the chill of the cold water as my body collapsed into it. i felt the morbidly damp sensation of the wet sand beneath me. i saw the moon, and felt the wind rush past my falling body when i fell. i felt my heart pounding in my chest, the sweat collecting on the back of my neck and middle of my back, from running, the ground beneath my feet, and the fear in my stomach. i felt the piercing of the knife plunging into my flesh, the scraping of the blade against my bones. i felt the blunt connection that bones make when a fist hits your cheekbone and mouth. i heard myself scream and my assailant's footsteps as they walked casually away. i felt my breath stagger, and my heart slow down. i felt my blood leak from the fresh openings made in my body. i could feel myself become very quiet and everything around me just fade away. then i woke up and it took a few moments to realize that i was home, in bed, just fine. i hate those types of dreams, you know the ones that seem so real, you dont remember where you are when you wake.
6. HOW DO YOU EXERCISE?
dancing, and weight training. sometimes i do the bike. yoga everynow and then to stay limber...mostly for dancing at the club...LOL
7. APPLES OR ORANGES?
apple sauce and orange juice
8. HAVE YOU EVER HUGGED SOMEONE?
love it
9. WOLVES OR TIGERS?
a tiger could kill a wolf. i have two-booie and macco. fierce lil buggers.
10. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
im pretty eclectic. i like alot of stuff...mostly certain songs. but always mariah..and things with a slamming beat.
11. HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN POETRY?
i have a book and was once published in one of those stupid magazines.
13. DO YOU REMEMBER BIRTHDAYs?
try to. but im with nina..signs are where its at.
14. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
11:36am
15. DO YOU HAVE A BIRTHMARK, WHERE?
i have one on the middle of my back. its very light brown and ive been told it looks like a spearhead. i think its cute.
16. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON?
im more romantic than anyone knows. you dont know whats goin on inside this head:)
17. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?
omg..who knows? whats weird to you may not be weird to me.
18. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN?
watching the second season of buffy and doing some laundry.
19. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO CANADA?
i had to see what it was all aboot, oooh-kay? yes i believe three times, with my girls.
20. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE?
candy bars. i think prolly kit-kat. i cant seem to say no to them.
21. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)?
gum?
22. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM?
vanilla with cherries
23. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER?
maybe my shoes..some gloves..and my rents have some furniture.
24.FAVORITE PERFUME?
Chanel #9
25. FAVORITE COLOGNE?
nautica by ralph lauren
26. DO YOU OWN AN INSTRUMENT?
my instrument goes wherever i go. la la la la la...i also used to own a keyboard and guitar that i barely played. the keyboard was for school, and i know the basics. the guitar was becuz i wanted to learn but ended up giving it to my brother, and then selling it.
27. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)?
opposite sex?..smile, hair, and legs.
28. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
booie
29. FAVORITE SOUND THAT YOU HEAR OFTEN?
laughing...and i also love it when the birds are singing outside. the ocean is kewl too.
30. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?
how am i gonna survive this vegetarian thing..i caught myself twice going for meat today, but stopped myself(yay me!) how my room is a mess, finances, work tomorrow, my girls, ej, how badly i want the weather to get better, what am i doing?, what should i be doing?, how can i make more money?, what days did i take off for vacation this year?, how its funny that when my face was a "mask", my body was in perfect condition, and now that i no longer wear a mask, its not...why cant it be both?..what is there to drink?
damn gemini...lol
31. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
only when in tight spaces?
32. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE?
i have and will again.
33. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME?
I like Beauty and the Beast, with close runner ups of the emperors new groove, cinderella, and aladdin.
34. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME?
make it happen by mariah carey. there have been a few that made me falter just a bit, but when i think of it..they are just as good but make it happen came first, therefore, its number one.
35. WOULD YOU EAT SHIT FOR MONEY?
whos or whats shit, and how much?
36. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
blue or blue-gray. ej has called them stony blue like some oceans or something like that.
37. HAVE YOU EVER SLEPT WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
yup
38. IF SO WHAT WAS/IS IT'S NAME?
Immensely
39. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
first crush when i was little?...ok, has anyone ever seen the movie "teen witch" with the redheaded chick named louise. it wasnt her, it was her boyfriend brad, in the movie. i had a big crush on him all the way through 4th grade. whoo-hoo!!
41. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
opposite sex?-long, dark, and curly.
42. WHO OUT OF YOUR CURRENT FRIENDS (SAME SEX) HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST?
same sex?-i havent really had a lot of male friends, and the ones that i did have, we arent friends anymore. but in the more present years, my longest same sex friend would be my BFF josh.
43. NOW THE OPPOSITE SEX?
opposite sex-that would be nina. we go waaaaay back
45. SUNRISE OR SUNSET?
sunsets. sooo beautiful and calming.
46. WHERE AT?
The Ocean
49. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES?
i have so many favorites for different reasons. i just like movies.
50. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON?
italy, greece, rome, or france
51. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?
see prior question relating to this for answer.
52. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
i can speak joshinese..LOL, ghetto-diva, canadian, some spanish and a touch of french. i can read spanish and french more than speak them, if that makes sense.
53. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX ?)
opposite sex-that i can remember, it was a smale pic of them in a cute lil frame. i still have it. her name is mandee fairchild.
54. WHO IS YOUR ALL TIME FAVORITE SINGER?
Mariah Carey...people, people, people...i thought we've gone through this.
55. ALL TIME FAVORITE BAND?
dont really have one.
56. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
i like scary ones, and mysteries..i used to read RL Stine's books all the time in middle school. sometimes i like sappy ones that make you go "wow".
57. DO YOU LIKE POETRY?
sometimes.
58. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
cold and sweet, creamy with caramel
59. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PHRASE TO USE?
"ooh-kay?"..and "shoot.." sometimes.."omg" and frequently "your mom eats cat poop." cant forget "ahahhahahahahahahhaha!"
60. DRAGONS OR DINOSAURS?
dinosaurs
61. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
what a shitty question. you cant help who you love. knowing they are leaving may make it even more passionate, but also more tragic. it is what it is, when it is, and you cant stop it.
62. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
you tell them, as often as you can, and solidify it by showing them in any way you can.
63. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
22
64. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?:
brunettes, and dark brown to black hair
65. WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ICE SKATING OR ROLLER SKATING?
either is fun. but rollerskating-its not cold, except you keep going around and around in the same direction, unless youre outside. will someone please tell me why they never go the other way in those places??
66. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
im not sure if they want me to give their number out on this thing.
67. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
complete lack of respect and compassion for others.
68. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
i once had the cops call my house and talk to my mom about the prank calls we made as kids....oops!
69. ANY LAST THOUGHTS?
i think its about time i actually wrote something in my LJ instead of this stuff, but i have no idea what i would say. |
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